I've been here over a year now. Not here as in this blog, here, as in this widow life. Widow life is a lot like riding a rollercoaster with your eyes closed, afraid to look down. You never know when your highs and lows will hit. You never know when something will strike a memory that'll bring you to tears or even find laughs. At first, thoughts and memories were a lot more often. Like every 15 minutes. Then every 30 minutes. Then every hour. In the beginning, I missed everything. I missed talking about Kaleb. I missed discussing how much he's growing and how we thought he was definitely the smartest kid on the block. I missed talking about how spoiled Molly was, and how I di

1. #31isthenew30DallasEdition was a success! We had a great and relaxing time away. My girls know how to treat a birthday girl just right...they never disappoint. Also, we may or maynot ever be the same after walking through the nude area of the spa by mistake. 2. It's weird how sometimes you just crave ball park nachos. 3. The day after I turned 31, I started getting indigestion. The only other time I've had indigestion like this was when I was pregnant, which isn't the case, so??? Blame it on getting old? 4. Special shout out to my little man for not being a typical man and noticing things like a polish change or new shoes. "Oh! I wike your toes momma!" "What's dose shoes? I wike 'e

Time tīm/ noun the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole. Time is tricky. Does it really heal or does it just give us a chance to learn? There was a time when I literally said, "fuck you, Time, I don't have time for you". I didn't want to wait on Time to heal me. I wanted to be healed right then and there. I didn't feel like I had time to wait on Time. Everyone said, "just give it some time, things will be better after you make it through the first year." Here we are my friends. A year to be exact. A year since I realized it only takes 2 seconds for your life to completely change. A year since my little boy lost his

1. Last year during this week, I posted a Tuesday 30 in honor of me turning 30. This year, since I'll be 31, I'll post 31 new things...kidding...no one wants to read a total of 61 things about me. Gross. Just re-read last years 30 and pretend it's new to you. Also, here's to hoping 31 is a tad better than 30. Beause, I need life to amp up it's good status. {follow my IG this weekend with the hashtag #31isthenew30DallasEdition} 2. Last week was the kinda week that made me long for a nap at 6am & had me dreaming about glasses of wine at noon. Can't put my finger on why, but longest.week.ever. 3. I love when I'm reminded how much I love my family. They're my 'feel good peeps'. 4. My sunb

Photo share from Kaleb's 3 year old photo session. Photos were taken by the amazing Chitwood Photography. When I started thinking about Kaleb's 3 year photos, I immediately knew I wanted something that captured all things, boy. I knew I wanted rustic, outdoors and a creek. The clearest choice was my grandparents farm. I grew up going to my grandparents every Sunday and now that they are both in a better place, I knew I wanted some lasting memories of their place. It was one of the most fun photo shoots I've been on. I'm so thankful for these pictures that capture Kaleb's personality at age 3 and the beauty of where I grew up. Thanks Marsha! This rug that Kaleb is sitting on was given to

1. Do parents actually send their kids to boarding school or is that just a Harry Potter/fancy people on tv, kinda thing? 2. Stop trying to make everyone think you own a yeti cooler by wearing a yeti cooler hat, you look dumb. 3. Yestergo: Kaleb's version of any day in the past. 4. For the first time in years, I left my house at 10 p.m. (on a week night) to go have beers with friends and pretend I was 20 again. 5. News flash: I'm not 20 anymore and I have an adult job that requires me to show up mentally, not just physically. 6. I hate non nap weekends. 7. My decision to buy extra cotton candy for Kaleb's party has proven to be the best decision of the summer. 8. My birthday is in 10 da

1. Mixing play-doh colors brings me anxiety unless it's the blue and green rolled into a ball, in which looks like the earth, but other than that, anxiety. 2. I'm getting my exercise back on and it feels pretty good. 3. Did I tell y'all I accepted my new job solely on the fact I can wear jeans on Wednesdays and Fridays?! 4. Overly energetic/patient/nice moms who have more than 1 kid in public, piss me off. 5. My favorite thing about the time change is the fact Kaleb and I get watch the sun rise on the way to school/work and it always reminds me that Charles is starting the day with us. 6. Someone please help me keep track of all the movies I never get to see in the theater and set up m